boy?

So I met this tall french guy called Marc-Antoine. I only talked to him for about thirty seconds while I was at work, and he seemed really nice, or as nice as can be for a guy I've only known for thirty seconds. But he got my phonenumber and called me tonight, just because, and ended up talking for nearly an hour, then invite me to go play video games at his house over winter break.

What am I to make of all this?

Either way, he's a sweet guy.

Eh, no more rehersals 'till the fourth. w00t! Not that I mind rehersals all that much, but a break is always nice. And school ends this week, which is another plus. My sister is coming down for New Years, along with her husband. Double plus? You bet. I need to get their t-shirts stenciled though. I also need to send my brother his Christmas gift. It feels weird to admit that I won't see him at all during the holiday season. Somehow it doesn't really feel like Christmas at all without my brother and sister present. And although I will see my sister and boy over the holidays, I won't see Phil at all. Weird? I thought so too.

I miss all three of them.

But the rest of my life is fully functional and loving it. I think my period of angst at the beginning of the school year is just November blahs. I got the same overwhelming angst feeling in grade ten too, so maybe it's just a seasonal thing.

And I just realised I don't want to type anymore.

I'm only happy when it rains

Thank Garbage for making such an emo song, while still making it so incredibly happy-making at the same time. "Pour your misery down..." Ah, what a song. I'm thinking about making an uber-cool t-shirt with some of the lyrics. It's designed already, but I won't say more here unless the big designers are secretly watching my every move in order to imitate my genius. Shifty eyes....

What a great feeling. I'm happy lately. Perhaps being tired made me angsty, and then becoming more tired just made me give up on being in a bad mood. It takes up too much energy. I was talking with Jade yesterday, and it was such a good talk. We were talking about our dreams for cegep and beyond, and how they were actually possible. It was such a good talk, scheming about things we never thought we could accomplish in a million years and yet that seem so reachable now. Plastered a smile on my face for the rest of the day, I can tell you that. Especially when I started scheming about taking the Player's Club Youth Group on the road. It would be the funnest road trip ever. And if we took a camera along with us, we could make the memories last forever, too. eeeee! I want to do it so bad, just to go back to my old school once more in triumph. You know, a victory lap. Say hello to old friends, make them meet new friends. If they haven't changed, they would get along so well with the gang here. And if they have, at least I'll have new friends to look down on them with. Tee-hee, I really want to do that, it sounds like so much fun.

Aiiee, I think I have a better idea for my prom dress. Think Contemporary Pirate Jacket without sleeves. And it's completely runway material, not even pret-a-porter. I have the pattern, but no intstructions other than a sew-along thread in a forum. Not to mention I'll need to make the jacket bigger than it actually is. Should I? I think so. I think that now that I've had this idea, any other will seem too easy. As for the colour scheme, I'm thinking black and aubergine (which is a deep purple kind of colour, in case you don't know). Of course, if I wanted to I could also add a flash of scarlet somewhere. Hmm... possibilities, so many possibilities. I wish I could exploit them all.